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September 10th
8:21 AM
"I always get asked, ‘Where do you get your confidence?’ I think people are well meaning, but it’s pretty insulting. Because what it means to me is, ‘You, Mindy Kaling, have all the trappings of a very marginalized person. You’re not skinny, you’re not white, you’re a woman. Why on earth would you feel like you’re worth anything?’"
—  Mindy Kaling
September 9th
9:04 PM

Just demolished half a family sized trifle. #obeselifestylechoices

September 8th
8:33 PM

I had a realisation last night.

I got back from a clothing swap full of fat babes on a big high. I had a great time and got lots of goodies. When I got home and looked through the clothes I picked up I just felt a bit deflated.

I think my frustration of not having my dream wardrobe and worrying about achieving a certain aesthetic that I never manage or can afford is because my fantasy wardrobe is my replacement thin fantasy.

Years ago (once upon a time) before fat acceptance I never dieted really for aesthetics, I never noticed a difference in my body when I lost weight. I did it because obvs my life would be perfect if I was thin. Now I think I feel like if my wardrobe was perfect then my life would be perfect. I spend a lot time thinking about clothes or figuring out how I could get the things I want in my size. Followed by guilt about spending money.

How I present myself is so tied up in my body politics, being visible on my own terms, in feeling good about myself that I feel like it is definitely okay to care I just wish I didn’t feel guilt/anxiety about it.

7:54 PM

Dreaming of lemon drizzle cake.

And the new season of The Mindy Project.

September 7th
10:21 PM

Reading a stranger’s diary from the 1970s

Peggy after Don fires her.


Reading a stranger’s diary from the 1970s

Peggy after Don fires her.

10:16 PM

Just got home from a day at a fat positive clothing swap and an evening at an Odorama screening of Polyester. 

Sleepy eyes, tired feet. Massive bag of new clothes and a weird smelling odorama card.

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September 3rd
5:21 PM